Below are the 13 most recent journal entries recorded in Courtney's LiveJournal:

Wednesday, January 10th, 2007
7:41 pm	im so nervous for university, and i just sent my application last week! i just want to get in at one of my choices, then i'll at least know that im going somewhere. i just want to be happy, and really wanna know asap! (3 Comments |Comment on this)
Friday, December 15th, 2006
7:08 pm	10 days till Xmas and I have MAYBE half of my presents bought! And no money to go along with them... I can't wait to see everyone who's home and just have some good times! Someone remind me to bring a camera EVERYWHERE I go. Anyways, I'm off to have dinner. (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Friday, December 8th, 2006
4:52 pm	getting ready to go to kitchener shopping. supposed to go to london, but they got 50 cms of snow, so we cant really get there. need to buy christmas presents, i have none so far, and no idea what im going to buy. ips for families is due monday so i'll be online all weekend getting it started/done. (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Thursday, October 12th, 2006
4:38 pm	i want to see the little mermaid again. caitlin and i were listening to it today at lunch, and it makes me cry. we're playing pomp and circumstance in band, and i usually almost cry just cause i know commencement's coming up. i want to see everyone. band is big. 16 trumpets and 16 flutes is tooo many. so is 4 oboes! (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Sunday, April 10th, 2005
3:31 pm	Bored I am so incredebly bored today, but it's SOOOO nice outside. I want to go to the mall, but mom's doing taxes, so we can't. No one is online, and I'm just so bored. Current Mood: bored Current Music: none (4 Comments |Comment on this)
Monday, March 21st, 2005
6:03 pm	Hello Hey Peoples of The World, I'm back again! Not to much to say today, I went shopping at Old Navy yesterday, so I got new stuff! Tanks and Tees and Purses- LOTS OF PURSES! Britain Trip is is 2 months less 1 day! The one thing i'm gonna miss is My friends who aren't going- mostly Kelly. I have this fear that im gonna be alone the whole time, and that no one will hang out with me. I dont know why, but I do. And I know I will get homesick. Oh well, you know what, I deserve this trip, and I'm gonna have a good time whether or not YOU like it. Gotta go for dinner. Current Mood: cold Current Music: Here For The Party- Grethen Wilson (Comment on this)
Monday, November 15th, 2004
6:43 pm	I hate being sick/allergies... Damn Freaking Colds SUCK! Woke up Saturday and felt meh... went to Kell's and I think her cat/dogs/blahness didn't mix, to make me feel any better. Got up Sunday, and knew all hell was breaking loose. Got up today, and ahhhh another freaking cold. My mom better not have anything cool planned for this week. Last time I was sick, it was my birthday and I went to see Mamma-Mia. No more sickness for me, I need to take vitamins and shit so I can stay healthy. School was school today. Almost late cause of Becky, once again. English was cool, i'm getting a 74 on my report card, meh. Parenting we went to Hamlet. Hannah and Kate were wow amazing today. I was very impressed. Music was ahhhhh, I get so mad when I can't play something and Greg can. And Law, we watched a movie, and I sneezed. Walked home with Kell and T.O.- the electronic baby from hell. Kell called and said she wont stop crying, they cant figure out whats wrong. I told her i'd be there in 2 minutes... lol. BEING SICK SUCKS! My Nickness for the day, is seeing him at lunch and as soon as I came to the table he left, don't make this harder than it already is. grrrrr... I mean how am I supposed to feel when this happens, and what will happen at the Christmas party with him, if I go. (still thinking bout it) What will go down, cause I would love to talk to him more, but not yell cause that might upset people. Anyways, I'm off for now, Gottsa go blow my nose, and take some more drugs. Until Next time... Current Mood: sick Current Music: Shadow- Ashlee Simpson (Comment on this)
Sunday, November 14th, 2004
2:46 pm	Whats New With Me.... Hello Once Again Peoples, Last Night it ended up that I went to Kelly's and Carley came over. It was cool, we talked to Suman on the phone for a while, and when they went and made popcorn, I talked to Suman about what is going on with Nick. I kind of feel bad for him for the way I treated him that Sunday afternoon, but what was I supposed to do. How am I supposed to feel? He broke my heart, and I'm just supposed to get over him like that. I feel that alot of my 'friends' have taken his side and said I overreacted with everything that has happened. How was I supposed to act? Was I supposed to be happy about everything that happened? Was I just supposed to act all happy when he totally rejected me, and was I just supposed to get over him like that and act like nothing happened, when it really did? Im sorry readers, I just have so much inside that I need to get out and vent, and when I cry I just feel bad for myself. What was I supposed to do? I wish that we could talk some more, but hed probably not want to because I might yell at him. Ya, he was scared to have a relationship with me because I might yell at him. Yet, he told me that him not liking me, had nothing to do with me, it was all him. Thats fucking bullshit. He's lied to me about numerous things, I mean did he really 'love' my hair? Did he enjoy having me as his friend? I'm so confused right now, and I dont know what to think. I NEED HELP! WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME PEOPLE?!?!?!?!?!?!?! Current Mood: confused Current Music: Fly by Hilary Duff (Comment on this)
Saturday, November 13th, 2004
2:15 pm	Missed Something, I MISS MY LEAFIES! :( Current Mood: sad Current Music: Hockey Night In Canada Theme (Comment on this)
1:42 pm	Well Well Well... Hello My Fellow Peoples Of The World, Since I havent updated in the past couple days i'll give you a quick rundown of the past couple days events. Thursday I had the Remembrance Day assembly. Played and Sang.... Fell outta my chair and got spit on by Gilbo. What a great day? Once again, Nick sat at our lunch table, right accross from me. I could see outa the corner of my eye that he was lookin at me, but I totally just ignore him, even though, I dont know why. I dont know why I act the way I do around him, but he doesnt say anything to me, so why I should I make the effort. I'm sure he blocked me on msn, probably cause he's scared of what i'll say. Ya, he didnt like me cause he thought I would yell at him. I think that is just shit, and how's that supposed to make me feel. I mean here I am totally into this guy, and all of the sudden its over because he is like that. I don't understand and I know thats not the only reason, and I want to know what and why. Anyways, Thursday, I saw him go upto Sarah Sylvester and give her a huge hug, and Friday I saw him pretty close with Amy Heimpel. I'm not sure whats going on, but in my head im so confused. I feel like I have feelings for him, and then I get mad at myself for thinking like that and then I don't know how I feel. Carolyn and me were talkin bout this last night, and she feels the same way. Big Dance comin up on the 26th, I'm remotely excited. I wonder if he'll be there... Oh well. Last night was Commencement, and Kelly gave me a ride there and home. I saw Christina and she was just lookin at me, and then she's like OMG, I didnt even realize you. and she's like YOUR HAIR! And then's she like do me proud oboe girly, It's nice to know I have some support from people. Carley asked me to be in the 'Carol Band', and I snapped right back and said, well you always say that no one likes the oboe including you so why would you want me in it. And she just walked off... w/e. I wanna see if I can get Christina's email from Katie, it would be nice to talk to her again. It would be nice to talk to anyone. Mom and Dad are gone to Aunt Trud's till tomorrow night, and Kell's comin over probably about 7PM. Gossip night. Gottsa go clean the house. Got invited to the Christmas Party, and we have to pay $8. I dont really mind paying, but I am NOT letting any of that money go towards alcohol. If it is, then I will not be paying and not be going. And if they say none of it is, and I found out that some did, I will be asking for my money back and I will walk out. I will not supply alochol to people, when I do not want to drink myself. They also said people that dont drink can keep an eye on the drinkers, NO CHANCE IN FUCKING HELL! I will not hold back peoples hair or make sure they do nothing stupid. That is not my responsibility, and I will not do that. I guess thats it for now, gotta clean. Until Next time. Current Mood: blah Current Music: All My Life by KC and JoJo (Comment on this)
Wednesday, November 10th, 2004
4:04 pm	Another Boring Day In The Life Of ME.... Hello Readers, Today was just another day. I've had a hell of a headache and everything in my body hurts. I really need a man! lol :) Band was band... Alison and I talked more today. I really like her, shes very nice and helps me out when I have a problem with the damn oboe. English was English, Parenting was Parenting.I GET TO HAVE THE BABY ON THE 22ND or 29TH! I'm SOOOO excited, can't you tell? Lunch was lunch. Music was AHHHHHHH. I got my test back and got 28/34, which is 82%. Thats not to bad for me and theory! Then we had our 'surprise' scales test which I knew was today. And I freakin got D flat major, and da daaa, if you can understand that. I got 7, which i'm okay with I guess. Law was Law, boring as hell. He gives us barely any work and then we just sit there and are bored as hell. Wow I like the word hell today. Walked home and got my exercise for the day. lol Sparkies last night was AHHHHHHH! I wanted to pull my hair out. I think I got about 25 marriage proposals from 4-5 year old girls! No damn fruit orders, but I have to go get Ange's and hopefully she'll let me see Carter! OMG I love him and Riley. Mom said that there is a sign @ GT for part time employment. I ALREADY TOOK A RESUME OUT THERE AND THEY HAVENT CALLED ME! It's not my fault that no one has called, so I have to go back out tonight and give another resume and ask about my old one I took over a month ago. Oh well... Not my fault. HI BECCA! Just had to do that for her. Dance on November 26th, and everyone says I have to go. Hey, If Nick's there I'll ask him to dance.... MAYBE?!?!?!?!??! Maybe no one will hire because I'm so fat and no uniform will fit me. :() Love ya'll *kiss* Current Mood: ...oh ya Current Music: My Boo (Comment on this)
Tuesday, November 9th, 2004
4:31 pm	Wow... It's been a LONG time! Hey everybody. Diary entry number two for me. Sorry its been so long, but I just havent had time to update. I didnt dump my friends, some of them came up and apoligized and others just are like whatever. I dont really care though. Im done with a certain couple. Lately, Ive been gettin really close with Kelly, and as a friend only. Im starting to feel remotely accepted by some, and it really feels great. Today went okay, English was good. Emily and Jocelyn invited me to work with them, cause Carrie doesnt like to work with me. She got mad one day cause I wasnt helping, but I totally didnt understand. Carrie always gets mad at me in English and I always wonder why. Parenting we went to Hamlet for our 3rd visit of 5. I got there and Ms. Fisher was like Courtney... you were the lucky selection to get 2 buddies. She was like Ms. MacPherson and I thought you would be the best person for this. I love Mrs. Schooly/MacPherson. She was my favourite teacher ever. We had a student drop out of our class, and I got their buddy. Her name is Kate, and wow she works good. Hannah I could tell was almost jealous that I couldnt pay so much attention to her and didnt want to work. Shes like you're talking with Kate. Kate was away last day and didnt have anything done yet. We got her rough copy and half of her good copy done, and Hannah didnt even get half of her good done and she alreayd had her rough done. So she complained alot, but oh well. We wont get to do a good job on her pop up section then. Doesnt bother me. And she said something bad back to everything I said. Kids these days eh? Lunch was lunch, ate and talked, caught up on all the gossip of the day. Kelly wasnt around, she went with Zane as friends. I completely understand all of that but not many do. She just wants to be friends because she doesnt know how she feels, and he totally likes her. Reminds me of Nick except I only knew how I felt. Wow, yall never found out what happened with him. To make a very long story short, he totally rejected me and then he lied. Cant trust a guy to care for you, eh, they're only good at breaking hearts. It really still even hurts, and I still dont know if I still have feelings for him. DONT ASK ME ANYMORE! Everyone is and I dont know how I feel. Im angry that he lied, and im upset because he broke my heart. I wish he knew, but I guess hes scared of me yelling at him. Guys these days eh.... Music was Music, and Law was ever so EXCITING... not. The only good part was that I was the highest mark on the test 8 1/2 and a 3+ and had my Euthanasia done, so I got to take the attendance. And everyone knew it was me.... they were all like who is it and McArthur was lookin at his sheet, and a whold bunchof assholes were like Courtney Courtney, and then everyone was like ya probably. WOOOOOHOOOOOOO Beat ya'lls asses!!!!!! Walked part way home with Kelly, and then she got a ride. Boooo :( Tonight I have Sparks and I hope to hell that I get some Fruit orders tonight. Anyways, I gotta go for supper. Love ya'll *kisses* Until Next Time, America or my readers. Current Mood: meh... Current Music: California/I Dare You To Move by: Phantom Planet/Switchfoot (Comment on this)
Monday, October 4th, 2004
5:23 pm	Wowee.... Well, I guess that ya'll wanna know bout me. As of right now, I am getting ready to do the hardest thing I have ever had to do. I am 'dumping' my 'friends'. I'm so sick of being treated so badly, so i'm done. I'm not exactly sure what's going to occur, but you will all be the first ones to know what happens after school tomorrow. Um... it's gonna be hard but I have to do this. I'm sick of the lies, and always hurting. And... I really miss my Leafies. Bryan, and Mattie. Wow, this lockout is so hard. Anyways, thats it for now. Talk to you all tomorrow with updates. Current Mood: depressed Current Music: Mamma Mia Soundtrack (Comment on this)